In A Preacher's Mind!

Recently I was asked a question by a very good friend of mine, "how is the ministry going"? I must say that I quickly rattled off one of those prepared before hand answers. You know, those short, sweet and not so true answers. The ones we package up before hand only to unwrap them on those who ask us questions. Without even processing the data that had entered my ears I said "all is well with it" when the truth is not all is well with it!

If I could replay that day I would actually tell my friend that it has been a hard knock life for me! Over the last 8 months, my life which is my ministry has been in a funk of frustration and fury. Life's unapologetic and sometimes brutish ways seem to be pushing me toward the edge of one funky, frustrated, fury filled mood after another and I am just trying not to lose my head...a hu hu hu hu! That's what I would tell him.

During our conversation he mentioned coming out to the blog and reading the messages that had been previously posted. They seemed to have provided him with some sense of joy and excitement. As he spoke, I felt the burn of embarrassment while expressing my shame verbally for not having posted any thing new in a long time. But then it hit me! Write your way out. To get out of this funk, I need to write my way out!!

As I sit in this chair tonight and reflect on what has taken place it occurs to me that I needed to hear my friend say he was reading the blog. I needed to feel the burn of embarrassment. I needed to hear myself express shame for not writing because I needed to realize that although life has a way of pushing you toward the edge, life and or ministry must go on!!

So I have said all of that to say this: The Printing Press has been fixed! Holla~